I'm not gone - just lurking, mostly. And busy. And ... confused. I've just gone through some major renovations to my home (replaced the furnace, that sort of thing) and absorbed some new responsibilities at work (which helped to pay for the furnace, fortunately). And I'm starting graduate school in January; I've been accepted to Clarion University's online Master of Library Science program, which promises to be deadly dull interspersed with mildly fascinating. But it will lead to gainful employment, which means that it will be exactly opposite my BS degree in psychology.
And my confusion, well ... I wanted to thank you all for your continued bearing of testimonies and expressions of faith, because they've really helped. I have had some personal clashes with my Bishop, and while I didn't handle it that well, he didn't cover himself with glory, either. I am now faced with trying to sustain the office of bishop while trying to minimize the damage that the man in that office is doing. I even went so far as to request a release from my calling, which required me to be in constant contact with the bishop. I was so relieved when I was interviewed by a High Councillor - he acutally *listened*, and let me know that I wasn't an apostate (which my bishop had deftly insinuated.)
Your tales of dealing with difficult wards and leaders have helped me feel less alone, and more certain that I'm dealing with this in a productive way (as best I can). I read most of the new posts every day, but I feel that I have so little to contribute right now aside from a general, "Yeah, what Last Poster said."
Thinking about it, I'm really glad for the Nauvoo Compact, and all of our commitment to it (well, *your* commitment to it, actually.) It doesn't just make this a pleasant and safe place for discussions, it also makes this a resevoir of faith and comfort for those of us who are quietly hurting.
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An MLIS degree is a good investment. My previous major was Russian -- couldn't get gainful employment with that, either. I started the MLIS in fall 2003, finished in December 2004, and found a job in less than a month of searching.
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Amschat, it is good to hear from you. I've been where you are with your Bishop - and it is hard. It took several years but I finally found that I could not go forward until I asked his forgiveness for my bitterness towards him. And I had to just let go of the hurt caused by his actions. His actions, while I still think the were way wrong, I realize were still just the actions of a man, struggling to do what he felt was right. The past cannot be reclaimed. And honestly, it has been I that suffered and my suffering came more from an unforgiving heart than anything else. Good luck to you.
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